I was dreading this Christmas as it as it was the first Christmas Eve I’d be alone. I wasn’t looking forward to waking up alone with no presents under the tree. But it turned out to be a wonderful holiday. My cousin invited me over for supper Christmas Eve, then I came home to an empty house. I think the fear of being lonely was overwhelming me. But, I enjoyed a cigar, took a shower, and sat down in my Lazy Boy in front of the fireplace with Grover cuddled up on my chest and a glass of wine. I was going to watch National Lampoons Christmas Vacation, or It’s a Wonderful Life, but just wasn’t in the mood. So I caught up on a couple of episodes of LOST. I’ve been working my way through the whole series again.
Before I left my cousin’s last night, she told me to come over at 10 this morning for brunch. My other cousin arrived just after I did and we had our usual big Christmas morning brunch with lots of bacon, eggs, toast, ham, and Champaign. They hadn’t opened their presents so after we ate, we all gathered in the living room and started ripping. I got some wonderful gifts and loved watching my family open their gifts from me. We all had a little snooze this afternoon then played some games.
Tonight at 6, we had a BIG Christmas dinner with all the fixings. The women did a great job preparing the meal. We were too full for dessert, although I’m not supposed to have it anyway. We sit an socialized for a while then headed for home. My fears were unfounded. Yes I was alone for a short while, but I’m getting used to that. But the day was a blessing and my cousin made a point of talking to me about my feelings and all the things that happened in my life over the summer. It helps to have a caring shoulder to lean on.
They say the first Christmas after a separation or family death is the worst, but that sure wasn’t the case for me. I truly was made to feel welcome and wanted. It gets easier from here on. I posted a few pictures if you’re interested in checking them out.
Happy Holidays to all my family and friends.
Larry
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